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Friday, January 30, 2015

I, Resurrection




How many times have you set goals for yourself?

When I was 20, I promised myself that I will be successful by the age of 25. The type of success that you will have the job that you want, the house you want to live in, the kind of life that people will get envious with. I turned 25 without accomplishing any of the three. It was heartbreaking but it was okay.

I promised the same thing, and this time I told myself, once I am thirty, I will become every single freaking thing I want to be.

Hello there! My name is Orange, and I am currently 29. I love to read books, play online games, eat, and sleep. And right now, I still haven't achieve the things I thought I will achieve.

But compared to how I felt when I was 25, it was not as heartbreaking, and of course, it is still okay. I know I still have a year to get things done, but I am already looking forward to the thought that there will be things that I will not achieve yet.

Of course, life is never meant to be easy, and I should not be ranting on my back-to-blogging post, but what can I do?

I already know what to do. In the following days, I must start deciding on the things I really want to do.Stop the delusions of grandeur and just continue to focus on the present and plan correctly to the future. I will stick to my goals, do everything to make sure it will achieve, and most of all, I still need to learn how to have fun.

If I can sum up my life so far, I die each moment I failed something. But in every slips, in every bad decisions made, in all the stupid things that happened to me, I realize I am still here - strong, breathing, fighting my hardest to learn something and to not make the same mistakes again.

In every goals I missed, I resurrect. And for now, that is all that matters. Only for now.