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Monday, January 30, 2012

Digestive System

Pinagawa na naman ako ng project ng landlady ko. Ayaw ko naman tanggihan kasi pampabago din yun ng pangalan sa boarding house. Proteksiyon na din just in case na madelay ang bayad ko sa future, naku, huwag naman sanang pahintulutin. haha.

Pero naeenjoy ko din ang mga pinapagawa niya sa kin. Dati pinagawa niya ako ng book report about sa Kite Runner. Tapos nitong kamakailan lang, nagpagawa naman ng tula, madali lang naman para sa akin ang tula, pero ang catch, dapat tungkol sa math! MATH na pagkahirap hirap, math na walang kamalay malay, math na kulang nalang isumpa ko nung nagaaral ako.

At ngayon ang peg ay ganito, kunwari may absent kang classmate, tapos susulatan mo siya ng isang letter na magdidiscuss ng isang lesson about sa system ng body. Pak na pak ang Biology teacher niya, ang daming alam, susme, kung ganito ang teacher ko dati, hindi ko na alam kung ano ang nagawa ko. Napakacreative ng teacher niya ano? Sobrang nakakastress.

Anyways ginawa ko naman siya. Tignan niyo kung pwede na. :)

Dear Friend,

I noticed that you’ve been absent for several days now, they said you had a fever that keeps on coming back. That seems so sad. I hope you are feeling better now.

While you were gone, our Biology teacher taught us a pretty interesting subject. He talked about the digestive system, its functions and importance. As you know, foods are important to the body, they give us energy that we need to get through the day. But I never expected that it will be a long process for food to be converted into nutrients.

Imagine travelling via train from Manila to Bicol. The train will be the food and drinks that we take in and the railroad track will be the digestive system. It will also have various stop over, that will be the organs that we need to pass in order to get to end of our trip.

Every time we take in food using our mouth, it needs to be broken down into smaller pieces. Your teeth tear off the food. The saliva glands start spewing out spit like fountains. Chemicals in your saliva start chemical reactions. Starch from the food that you take will be converted into smaller pieces of sugar. Then the tongue pushes down the food at the back of your throat. A trap door then opens, and there it goes, down your gullet.

First station will be the esophagus. A muscle action called peristalsis then push the food lower to our next station, the stomach.

The stomach is a small, 'J'-shaped pouch with walls made of thick, elastic muscles, which stores and helps break down food.  Imagine being inside a big pink muscular bag -- sloshing back and forth in a sea of half-digested mush and being mixed with digestive chemicals. Acid rains down from the pink walls which drip with mucus to keep them from being eroded. Our stomach is very important because it has enzymes that kill microorganisms that are ingested in food (pepsin). It can also denature protein which is very important for the body. Food in the stomach is in semi-liquid form, which upon completion is known as chyme.

After travelling the stomach, it will then go to the small intestines.

The small intestines have three parts -- the Duodenum, Jejunum, and Ileum. The majority of digestion and absorption occurs here after the milky chyme enters the duodenum. The small intestine looks like a strange underwater world filled with things that resemble small finger-like cactuses. But they're not cactuses, they're villi. Like sponges, they're able to absorb tremendous amounts of nutrients from the food you eat. From the villi, the nutrients will flow into your bloodstream. 

Second to the last station will be the large intestine. It's much wider and much drier. This is where you will find that the leftovers getting smaller, harder and drier as they're pushed through the tube. After all, this is the place where water is extracted and recycled back into your body. In fact, the leftovers that leave your body are about 1/3 the size of what first arrived in your intestines! Cool, right?

Then, we will reach our final destination. Now the drier leftovers are various handsome shades of brown. They sit, at the end of their journey, waiting for you to expel them -- out your anus. Of course, you know the rest! A glorious, if slightly stinky, journey, don't you think? 

I hope this letter will help you once you get back at school. We hope that you get well soon. Don’t forget to eat a lot of healthy foods and drink a lot of water.

Now class, I hope you learn something about the body’s digestive system. Sana lang maganda ang grade ng anak niya pagpasa nito. para at least worth it naman ang pagod ko dito.

isa lang ang narealize ko, nakakamiss mag aral ulet.

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Si Amapola sa 65 na Kabanata

katatapos ko lang basahin ang Si Amapola sa 65 na Kabanata. the book was really good, aside from its written by ricky lee, there is something so realistic about the theme.

simple lang naman e, LAHAT TAYO HATI! :)

parang si Amapola, isang baklang impersonator na may mga weirdong alter egos. aside from that, malalaman mo na mananangal. iniisip ko palang na sa akin mangyayari yun, napapraning na ako. bukod pa doon, may isang propesiya na kailangan mong hanapin ang itinakda, sa kasamaang palad namatay ang itinakda, at all of a sudden si amapola na ang tinakdang magliligtas sa pilipinas.

pwede din si Lola Sepa, umibig kay andres bonifacio, lahat ginawa niya para dito, kahit ang buhay niya ang nakataya. ngayon, dahil sa mga panaginip niya, sa kanya nakasalalay ang pagpapatupad ng propesiya.

Si Emil naman, isang noranian from head to toenail. namana niya ang pagiging noranian sa nanay niya. buong buhay niya, si nora ang icon niya. magpapatugtog ng pearly shells sa coffee shop, dami ng pelikula ni nora, alam niya lahat ng mga shits about nora, mga ganoong bagay. pero kapag anjan na sa harap niya si nora, hindi kagaya ng ibang fans na halos magunaw na ang world nila, siya andoon lang sa tabi, pinapanood lang siya.

o di kaya si homer, ang all time crush ni amapola. napatay niya ang asawa niya dahil sa kagustuhan na matanggal ang pagiging aswang nito. tapos naiwan sa kanya ang anak niya.

lahat ng mga characters sa libro, may hati ang pagkatao, si amapola nga lang ang nakakalipad. kahit sino naman, hindi mapipigilang maramdaman na parating may kulang sa pagkatao natin. minsan nga, akala natin ang mga bagay na kukumpleto sa atin, ito pa pala ang magpapamiserable ng mga nararamdaman natin.

sobrang entertaining basahin ang book. aside sa mga baklaang dialogs, mga nakakaaliw na character at magandang plot, madali siyang basahin. minsan iisipin mo ang mga simbolo na ginagamit sa book, pero minsan, ayaw ko ng magconcentrate sa mga gustong iparating ni ricky lee, mas concentrated ako sa mga mangyayari sa baklang si amapola.

hindi ko inexpect ang ending niya. well tama nga naman ang book, hindi si amapola ang pag asa ng pilipinas. bukod sa hindi ako papayag, haha, sabi nga ni ricky lee, tayong lahat ang pag asa ng ating lupang hinirang

nasa sarili natin ang mga bagay na kailangan natin para mas maging maayos ang bansa, tayo ang tutulong sa mga sarili natin na mawala ang kahirapan at mga nagugutom, tayo ang magpoprotect sa kalikasan natin, at tayo din ang makakakagawa ng paraan para maging maayos ang mga buhay natin. hindi ang gobyerno, hindi ang ibang tao, at lalong hindi ang isang becky na manananggal.

kailangan nating simulan sa mga sarili natin. kung hati man tayo, okay lang yun, hindi tayo nagiisa. balang araw, mararamdaman din natin ang pagiging buo.

Saturday, January 28, 2012

Random Orange II

okay, random post. :)

- one week na akong morning shift! one week na nagbabarong pag pumasok sa work, kumakain sa megamall pag lunch, at higit sa lahat one week na tumatanggap ng tawag kasi mas madaming tumatawag sa umaga. sa nakaraang linggo, pakiramdam ko para akong zombie, kasi ba naman isang linggo na rin akong nakakatulog ng hating gabi at nagigising ng 5am. pakenshit, right? siguro ito ang napapala pag galing ka sa panggabi, pero iba kasi ang case ko, isang taon akong asa panggabi tapos biglang morning nalang. kahit umiinom na ako ng stress tabs pag gabi, hindi ko talagang magawang makatulog ng maaga. buti nalang rest day na tomorrow, kaso kailangan namang maglaba, baka mamurder ng laundry shop ang barong kong bagong bago, kasi isang taon siyang natago sa baul bago nagamit. hahaha.

- nakabili na ako ng book number 2, for sure narinig niyo na iyon, siguro ‘kapag gumawa nalang ako ng post about the book ko sabihin kung ano yun. pero clue, tagalog book. :)

- nagapply pala ako ng part time. hmm… isa siguro sa pinaka hindi ko siguradong ginawa sa buhay ko ang part time na yun. haha. alam ko naman na nagsusulat ako, pero hindi ko lang sigurado kung may magbabayad sa akin para sumulat ng isang bagay. sana lang, as in sana lang, every thing turn out well, para kahit papaano mag tuloy tuloy na.

- i am already planning a solo trip. may napili na akong lugar, hindi palang ako nagsisimulang magplan ng itenerary kasi ayaw ko naman talaga ng itenerary. parang mas masaya na pumunta nalang sa isang lugar, maupo sa buhangin, damhin ang init ng haring araw at pakinggan ang alon. what can you say about BOLINAO?

- sobrang thank you pala sa 21 kong followers, saka sa mga friends ko from wordpress na walang sawang bumabalik sa orange kong mundo. haha. as i checked my stats, mayroon na akong 8500+ na views, haha. not bad. you make me happy guys. salamat talaga.

ito muna, kasi masyado na akong antok. may book pa na kailangang basahin at barong na kailangang ibabad sa ariel. haha.

have a great weekend.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Probably

Probably, you were drunk when you approached me.

Probably, I was more drunk to entertain you.

Probably, you were deaf because you said I sang well.

Probably, I was just over confident.

Probably, you were stupid for asking my number. And,

Probably, I was more stupid for giving it out.

Probably, you will not call or text.

Probably, you will.

Probably, I will reply.

Probably, not.

Probably, I will tell you to stop texting me.

Probably, you will still insist.

Probably this is just a joke.

Probably, this may be something you will never do.

Probably you may.

Probably I will keep on hoping.

Probably we met in mistake.

Probably we were just under the influence.

Probably its alcohol or love

Probably its just lust

Probably you’re crazy to ask me out.

Probably we can see a movie, grab a coffee, or sing our hearts out.

Probably it is the beginning of a lot of wonderful things.

Probably, it will have a sour ending.

Probably that is the reason why I haven’t replied

Probably im scared, or anxious, or hesitant.

Probably things like this never exists.

Probably im too naïve to believe it does.

Probably we were meant to be.

Probably, we’re not.

Probably I am going in circles

Probably I haven't made a point.

Probably all the probabilities will never make sense.

Probably I am just a coward

Probably you are sincere, and

Probably this is love.

Probably not.

Probably.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Oustanding RANGE

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Kailangan may Orange pa din sa title. haha.

Monday, January 23, 2012

Believing on Something

i didn’t attended the final interview on my new company. it was really a tough decision that really left me thirsty for sleep this past couple of days.

a lot of my friends mentioned that i should trust on my guts, and my guts was really saying no to it. not because of the bad vibes, not because of how lonely the company seemed, but because i know i will not be happy with them.

i’d rather be broke but happy. happiness always comes first. :)

now, i am just relying on what steve jobs said, that at some point the dots will somehow connect in the future, that i have to trust on something. because it will give me confidence to follow my heart and eventually, lead me to something greater.

something made me stay in my present company for two years. its the longest that i’ve been in any company. that made the whole difference. that is my something.

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Sabaw

alam ko masyadong delay na ang post na ito. last year pa kasi pinalabas ang babae sa septik tank we. pero ano bang magagawa ko, kanina ko lang siya napanood. haha.

ngayon ko lang naintindihan kung bakit sobrang proud ang mga pinoy sa movie na ito, sobrang ganda, probably one of the best pinoy films that i’ve watched.

at since marami ng gumawa ng movie review about sa film na ito, hindi na ako gagawa. pero iiwan ko nalang kayo ng isa sa mga pinakamagandang eksenang napanood ko sa isang pinoy film.

super duper like. pinanood ko ng sobrang daming beses. kinakabahan nga ako ngayon we, baka maging LSS. afraid!

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Ang Basketball

sa sobrang boredom siguro ng mga officemates ko, nagplano sila ng basketball game.

may sports fest na kami sa company kung saan lahat ng mga empleyado ay nagsasama para maglaro ng isang game… bowling! so hindi na pala dapat sports fest ang tawag dun, bowling competition, my bad.

ayon sa tsismis, kaya daw ayaw ng magkaroon ng basketball game sa kumpanya namin kasi nung isang huling liga, nastress ang isa naming bossing dahil may nangyari. parang may nabalya ata tapos tinamaan ang ulo, ayun,pinatawag ang bumalya kay kawawang empleyado, at siyempre ang dinahilan lang, “bossing, basketball game yan, minsan magkakaroon talaga ng ganyan.” tapos ang maliligayang araw ng mga basketball players sa company namin, lahat ng sports na malaking ang chances na ikainjure mo, hindi na malalaro. kaya ngayon, bowling nalang ang paraan para magbond ang mga empleyado. siguro pag may nainjure pa sa bowling, baka chess o game of the generals nalang ang ipacompetition ng company namin. :p

pero, boys will be boys, kahit na sila sila lang ang magorganize ng liga nila, makapaglaro lang ng basketball, gagawin nila ang lahat. nagpaplano na sila nung mga nakaraang araw. naghahanap ng paglalaruan, referees, magpapatahi na ng uniforms, at siyempre may mga muse din.

nagsimula na rin ang email trail, lahat ng lalaki kasali, lahat ng lalaki which includes lahat ng badette sa company namin. nung una, hindi ako kasama, siguro akala talaga nila babae ako, haha, pero nung napansin na wala akong pangalan ko, dinamay na rin ako. haha. nakakatawa lang, kasi ang mga badette, nagsimulang magtawagan ng bro, brad, at pre sa email trail. may isang bading din na nagmaasim, nagulat nalang kami ng nabasa namin ang email niya na nagsasabi na, “anong gagawin ko diyan? tigilan nga ako.” tawanan kami ng mga kakulto ko sa office, sobrang serious, pakiramdam talaga niya paglalaruin siya. hindi niya siguro nagets na kulitan lang sa email ang lahat ng mga kaganapan.

sinasali nga rin nila ako pero asa sila maglalaro ako ng basketball, siyempre hindi ako sasali. hindi nga ako sumasali sa bowling competition nayan, basketball pa? haha. hindi ko alam. hindi talaga ako natutong magbasketball. nung bata pa kasi ako, mas abala ako sa pagtutok sa masalimuot na buhay ni sarah crewe habang inaapi siya ni ms. minchin at lavinia kesa sa magpaaraw at magpainit sa labas. ayokong napapawisan, kasi madalas akong magkaroon ng bungang araw we, sorry, sensitive lang ang balat. haha.

kahit nung nagaaral ako, nagagawan ko ng paraan na iwasan ang basketball. nung high school ako, akala ng lahat ng tao sa school namin may asthma ako, kaya bawal akong magbasketball, pero ang katotohanan, wala talaga. pag naglalaro ng basketball ang mga classmates ko, ako andoon lang sa tabi, binabasa ng pauulit ulit ang the little prince ni antoine de st exupery. haha.

buti nalang nung college may choice ng pumili ng pe, hindi ko din pinili ang basketball.

i have nothing against basketball, may mga bagay lang talaga ako ng ayaw kong gawin at kahit siguro yun nalang ang natititirang hobby sa planet earth, hindi ko pa rin siya gagawin. gusto ko naman ang basketball, ayaw ko lang na ako ang maglalaro.

 bebench-kerbiezamora4 Kerbie Zamora. :)

maraming aral sa basketball ang pwedeng iapply sa tunay na buhay.

una, may mga bagay sa buhay natin na minsan lang darating, parang free throw, kaya make sure mapapasok mo ito. pag sumablay sa una, siguro try mo ulet sa pangalawa.

next, pag may tinatry kang bagong bagay, bawal magtravel, bawal umabot ng tatlong steps. pag hind na talaga kaya, o nagkakaproblema na, ipasa na ang bola. haha.

pangatlo, minsan mafofoul ka, o sasablay, pero importante na matuto sa mga pagkakamali at siguraduhin na hindi ka gagraduate.

at higit sa lahat, sa buhay natin, kailangan minsan ng katulong para mapagtagumpayan ang mga bagay, teamwork kumbaga, pero importante din na magrely ka sa mga skills mo kasi minsan hindi anjan ang mga kakampi mo para tulungan ka. parang sa basketball.

with that being said, excited na ako sa basketball game sa office namin. haha…

Thursday, January 19, 2012

To Be or Not To Be

last tuesday, i went job hunting. it was with a company (call center) that was referred by my friends. they mentioned that the salary is good and they seemed happy with it so i gave it a try.

people say that applying a job is like an entrance exam for college, you must rest well the day before the big day in order for your mind to be ready. well, screw that! i went there with only three hour of sleep because i have a shift the day before the interview.

the location was far from my place. it was really my first time being in that part of manila (libis). it is not your typical call center that is normally inside a building on a financial district somewhere where fast food chains and business establishments are everywhere. the center was located on a big warehouse, beside the main road, that doesn’t even have a 7-11 nearby. across the street, you will just see a wall that protects a high class subdivision. i don’t even know if the building has any neighbor on it. the place felt so remote.  it felt so lonely.

i started motivating myself by focusing my mind on the offer and not on how miserable the office seemed. “you will get use to it, you’re here for the money,” i told myself.

though i know that i have the work experience that the company need, i was also aware that my current position in my current job was really different from the things a regular call center agent do. i can speak fluently in english, i really don’t have any problem with that, but it’s been two years when i started talking to filipinos over the phone. i was sure that i will have trouble adjusting to the english language again.

what was cool about the company was even before they interview their applicants, they will have a briefing. it was a talk about what to expect about the whole application process. the speaker even taught us how to pronounce words. words with th and the difference between p and b were also discussed. it will be cool for a call center newbie who doesn’t even have an idea about how the process works. i was multitasking the whole time of the discussion because i was not even finish with the application form. damn paper works.

the speaker will also talk about the account – its pros and cons, expectations, that kind of stuff. when she said that there was a financial account that offers 25k, and that there was only 5 slots left for their next training schedule, my competitive, greedy and aggressive self grow. i have to be part of the five.

i was confident the whole day. i was able to impress my interviewer on the initial interview, passed their upcat like exam, breeze through their typing test, everything was working exactly the way i want it. i then found out that their financial account was my old job. it was really my lucky day.

like in any call center, a hiring process will not be complete without a call simulation (call sim). a call sim is a role play between the applicant and someone else. it will be hell if you’re a newbie, believe me, i’ve been there. :p i waited for approximately two hours at the company’s lobby for my name to be called. the recruiter gave us basic on how to use their avaya phone and i was really ready.

then the phone rang. this is it.

lj: hi this is lj, how may i help you?

recruiter: hey lj, im checking if the phone line is working well and if you can hear me.

lj: oh, i can hear you.

recruiter:  that’s good, but remember, even in the first call you have to use your opening spiel.

lj:  ahm… what opening spiel?


recruiter: the spiel that you have on your review?


i started to panic. i want to tell her. addict, ano bang pinagsasasabi mo?  but since i was an applicant, i just said,

lj: im sorry, but i am really not getting you.

the girl who did my conducted my initially interview suddenly call me. apparently, there was a reviewer that you have to read in order to get familiarize on what you will do with the call sim. no one told me. i waited for two hours and no one in the company even bother told me that there was this stupid reviewer that you have to read. i just did my best to get familiarize with the script with the least possible time. i have been in their company for almost seven hours now, i don’t know if i still have the patience to stay for another hour. and looking at the script, i know what to expect. this was my account before, so i know i got this.

after 20 minutes, i told them i was ready. here we go again.

i was with another applicant when the call sim took placed. we started almost at the same time. since i have the experience in those types of call, i knew i aced the call sim. i finished in five minutes and was able to solve the caller’s concern, i was able to answer all of her questions, and i even made an up sell. the caller remained quiet and was not able to speak. probably she was impressed.

however, after the activity, all she said was, “definitely you will do well on the call because you used to take these types of calls before.” it will be fine if she will say it in a friendly way, but it was sarcastic. after that she even ask me why i still have problems with the th and the difference between how to pronounce b and v? i explained to her that i was used to getting calls from pinoys but she just interrupted me and explained to me that it was not a valid reason. she did not even commented on how i performed on my call hence she just proceed to all the things that i was bad at. pretty rude, right? i started getting pissed so i just remained quiet and just agree to all the things that she will say.

if i was not an applicant, after she said that, she will really hear a lot of bad things from me. hahaha. i will definitely tell her that it was not my fault that i know the account, i know how to take this type of calls, and it was not me who chose to be placed on this account. if you guys think that i have a problem with the way i speak, definitely, your company should not let me pass the initial interview because my first interviewer already mentioned that to me before. i know that she was expecting me to screw up, that i will rattle or even get terrified with the situation however, too bad for her, i did not. i made her job easier. she should know that an applicant will do everything to get hired, especially me, because i was focusing on the 25k prize. mamatay na sana lahat ng insecure sa mundo! hahaha.

but, i passed and i am now up for the final interview. but right now, i am thinking whether i want to be part of a company that degrades people even though they are not their employees yet. what happened was really rude and unforgivable; it was something that i am not even used to.

i have five days to decide whether to attend the final interview. the choice is simple. i can forget what happened on the call sim and just focus on what will happen on the next interview, get hired, and be happy because im 25k richer, but i have to deal with people like my interviewer. or, i can stay in my company now, where everyone is okay and nice, however the pay is not that competitive.

so, to be or not to be?

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Encourage Someone to Create a Blog

let’s talk about my bucket list. :)

i was able to complete a task without even me knowing it. wanna know what is it?

9. encourage someone to create a blog.

a3c (his blog name) and i have been officemates for quite a while now. we were in the same shift and sometimes, we share the same interest. i was the one who introduced him to google reader, to camille co and a lot of other bloggers. we even planned to create a lookbook account but that will be too much for me, maybe for him its not.

he is into travelling. because of blogging, he was able to go to ilocos without spending much.

before, he really wanted to start a blog in order to document all of his adventures but he was still unsure. last week, i also informed him that i have a blog. yes, he is one of the two people in our company that knows i write. haha. every time he reads my post, i really don’t know if i will really be okay about it.

enough of me, here is the link of a3c’s awesome blog.

friends, kindly welcome him and show him some bloggers love. haha.

also, david guison, be scared, be very scared. kidding! haha.

Monday, January 16, 2012

Favor Bank


i first encountered the idea of a favor bank from paulo coelho’s book zahir. the thought was simple; you have to give favors to people in order to return the favor back. while i was on my way home, this thought suddenly entered my mind. crazy as it may seem, i had this feeling that i really need to write about it. 

a favor bank established trust. they create influence. true enough.

but we are not paulo coelho. we don’t have influence like he have. we are just mere humans who really strive hard to survive a day without worries and angst. though we have connections, sometimes, it’s really hard to rely on it. 

i am not saying that paulo coelho is wrong. but sometimes, i think the best favor bank that we can have is a bank within ourselves. yes, we should also start giving ourselves the favors that it needs. that way, when times get rough and all the favor banks that you established around you suddenly collapsed, you have yourself to rely to.

but, favors are favors. and it will be best if you gave them out without expecting something in return.

Who Knows Your Blog?


kausap ko si lorena last week. as usual, bukod sa office gossips, kung ano ano naman ang pinagusapan namin. everything was pretty normal that day, hanggang sa itanong niya.

“alam bas a office na nagboblog ka?”

since si lorena naman ang kausap ko, dapat kahit papaano, comedy ang sagot.

“hindi lahat. si officemate one at officemate two lang ang nakakaalam at siyempre sinabihan ko na sila to not give out the link. kasi alam mo naman sa office, maraming inggetera, baka gumaya, tapos feeling ko naman hindi naman dapat nilang malaman na. alam mo yun, baka isipin pa nila, ang arte arte naman nito may blog pa.”

totoo. dalawang tao lang sa 300 employees ng company naming ang nakakaalam na may blog ako. i don’t know. minsan kasi feeling ko hindi naman dapat malaman ng mga tao sa company namin ang mga pinagsususulat ko. hindi nila maiintindihan. for sure, minsan, hindi rin sila makakarelate.

alam ko din na minsan, i am posting some work related shits, though not offensive, without their consent naman. haha. pasalamat pa nga sila na sinusulat ko sila dito, 20 kaya ang followers ko! hahaha. 20 people will know more about them.

pero seriously, siguro most bloggers naman ay nagsimulang magsulat because they want to express themselves. ganoon din ako. nagsusulat ako kasi may mga idea na kailangang irelease sa utak ko, mga damdaming ayaw kimkimin, o may mga bugso ng puso na pag hindi nairelease, nakakamatay. minsan, gusto ko rin lang naman na magshare ng mga bagay na hilig ko.
mapalad na lang siguro kung may makakadiscover ng blog mo, o magkakaroon  ng followers, o may magcocomment pero ang unang rason mo para magsulat kasi gusto mo lang ng lugar na may paglalabasan ng lahat ng nararamdaman mo. isang instumento kung  saan walang manghuhusga, walang makikikialam at kahit kalian walang magsasabi na mali o tama.

hindi na siguro kailangang malaman ng mga officemates ko ang mga saloobin ko kasi kasama na nila ako. :p

ikaw, sinong nakakaalam ng blog mo?

Friday, January 13, 2012

Para kay Mariel


kababata ko si erick. mayaman ang family nila. sa tingin ko, sila ang pinakamayamang pamilya sa lugar naming dati. engineer kasi ang tatay niya.

sabay kaming lumaki ni erick. naging classmates din kami nung elementary. ang bahay nila, parang pangalawang tahanan ko na dati, alam na alam ko ko ang lahat ng bahagi noon. marami kaming activities ni erick dati. si erick ang kasama kong mangaroling pag christmas, siya ang nagturo sa king mag solitaire sa computer, siya ang nagturo sa kin na mag chess at scrabble, ang unang magkakakita ng una kong performance para sa school oration, at marami pang iba. minsan, lagi din akong kasama sa mga lakad ng family niya kunwari may laban sila ng taekwondo o pupunta sa recital ng kapatid niya. si erick ay isang depenisyon ng isang childhood bestfriend, at isa siya sa pinakabest noong mga panahon na iyon.

pero ang kwento na ito ay hindi tungkol sa kanya. :p

may pinsan sina erick na kaclose ko din – sina marvin at mariel. laki silang dalawa sa probinsiya at dumadalaw lang tuwing bakasyon sa muntinlupa. si marvin, kasing edad namin ni erick, kasama din sa mga kalokohan naming dati. si mariel naman, mas bata ata sa min ng limang taon.

si mariel, matapang na bata, saka masipag. dati, kahit tanghaling tapat, kapag inutusan siya hindi siya aangal. minsan naabutan ko siya ng alas nueve ng gabi kasi may inuutos pa sa kanya. mabait si mariel, masayahin, isang typical na bata.

magkachat kami sa skype ni erick kanina, asa uk na kasi siya. kahit na matagal na kaming hindi nagkakasama, kapag sinipag, we get to catch up. kinamusta ko sina marvin at mariel kay erick, kasi nga matagal na rin akong walang balita sa kanila ng malaman ko na namatay na si mariel.

nagpakamatay.

ayon kay erick, hindi daw nakayanan ni mariel ang pagkabigo niya sa babae. nagbigti daw siya. nakakalungkot lang kasing isipin kasi one week pa bago natagpuan ang katawan niyang nakasabi sa dating computer shop ng kapatid ni erick. long weekend daw kasi, kaya hindi nakadalaw agad ang kapatid ni erick sa shop nila.

kaya nga sinasabi ko, mahirap uminom mag isa ang mga taong may malaking problema.

nakakalungkot. kahit two years ago pa iyon, hindi ko maisip na may kakilala akong ginawa iyon.

hindi talaga perfect ang buhay. 

mariel, kung asan ka man. sana natagpuan mo na ang kaligayahang matagal mo ng pinaglalaban.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Taylor Swift Ours

the reason why i love taylor swift is the way she writes her songs. feeling 15 years old kasi ako pag mga kanta na niya ang tinutugtog. lols.

i love singers who write their own songs. actually, when it comes to music, i love the lyrics more compared to the melody. maybe because i am more into literature, or maybe i am just weird. haha.

but there is something about this song that really makes me love it more. i've been playing it on repeat for several days now. like i have 200 plus songs on my phone and this is the only thing i am listening to.

i know, i am weird. who cares? haha.

Enjoy!

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

The Reasons Why I Love The Alchemist

i haven’t written anything about my favorite book. shameful. hahaha. so, i think i will just leave you guys the reason why i love it.

here are some quotes from the book.

· we are told from childhood onward that everything we want to do is impossible. we grow up with this idea, and as the years accumulate, so too do the layers of prejudice, fear and guilt. there comes a time when our personal calling is so deeply buried in our soul as to be invisible. but it’s still there

· it’s the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting

· everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives, but none about his or her own

· people say strange things, the boy thought. sometimes it’s better to be with the sheep, who don’t say anything. and better still to be alone with one’s books

· one’s personal legend is what you have always wanted to accomplish. everyone, when they are young, knows what their personal legend is. “at that point in their lives, everything is clear and everything is possible. they are not afraid to dream, and to yearn for everything they would like to see happen to them in their lives. but, as time passes, a mysterious force begins to convince them that it will be impossible for them to realize their personal legend….whoever you are, or whatever it is that you do, when you really want something, it’s because that desire originated in the soul of the universe. it’s your mission on earth

· the boy felt jealous of the freedom of the wind, and saw that he could have the same freedom. there was nothing to hold him back except himself. the sheep, the merchant’s daughter, and the fields of andalusia were only steps along the way to his personal legend

· well there is only one piece of advice i can give you’ said the wisest of the wise men. ‘the secret of happiness is to see all the marvels of the world, and never forget the drops of oil on the spoon

· you have been a real blessing to me. today, i understand something i didn’t see before: every blessing ignored becomes a curse

· the sheep had taught him something even more important: that there was a language in the world that everyone understood, a language the boy had used throughout the time he was trying to improve things at the shop. it was the language of enthusiasm, of things accomplished with love and purpose, and as part of a search for something believed in and desired

· he still had some doubts about the decision he had made. but he was able to understand one thing: making a decision was only the beginning of things. when someone makes a decision, he is really driving into a strong current that will carry him to places he had never dreamed of when he first made the decision

· there is only one way to learn,” the alchemist answered. “it’s through action. everything you need to know you have learned through your journey

· tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. and that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second’s encounter with god and with eternity

· when you possess great treasures within you, and try to tell others of them, seldom are you believed

· then you’ll die in the midst of trying to realize your personal legend. that’s a lot better than dying like millions of other people, who never even knew what their personal legends were

· what's the world's greatest lie?... it's this: that at a certain point in our lives, we lose control of what's happening to us, and our lives become controlled by fate

· we are afraid of losing what we have, whether it's our life or our possessions and property. but this fear evaporates when we understand that our life stories and the history of the world were written by the same hand

· when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.

· it was the pure language of the world. it required no explanation, just as the universe needs none as it travels through endless time.

i am so sorry for the long post. there were a lot of good one kasi. :)

enjoy! :)

Monday, January 9, 2012

Vulnerability

Last Saturday, Nate and I went to our friend’s sister debut. It was fun. Though we know that the two of us were the oldest of the bunch, it’s always nice seeing young adults party their heart out.

I was so drunk that night. We drank a lot – tequila, tanduay ice, and empi lights, haist, it was really flowing with alcohol and we cannot help it.

After talking about our personal stuff, I opened this conversation with Nate.

Me: Nate, nag kwa-quarter life ka na ba?

Nate: Ano un?

Me: alam mo  yung feeling na parang at your age hindi mo pa naaachieve ang mga bagay na gusto mo talaga.

Nate:  Ahm, hindi naman, kasi hindi naman talaga ako mapanghangad sa mga bagay we. Masaya na ako na may work kami, okay ang mga family ko, ganoon.

This is what I love about Nate. I know that all of his decisions, they all involved his family. I am always at his house so I know, that is why I love staying at their place. He continued.

Nate: Alam mo kasi ang problem sa iyo, kailangan mo na ng partner. Kahit na aminin mo na okay ka lang, malungkot pa din. Hindi na iyon tipo dahil sa attraction or because of sex, pero siyempre at our age, we need to have someone na. Companionship baga.

True. I was drunk and I know I will be more courageous to say my side.

Me: I know naman. Sometimes, I get sad din. Hindi mo lang alam kung gaano ko na gustong magkaroon ng someone. Parang ang sarap ng may constant na kasama sa mga lakad, kumain, at magbyahe na kayong dalawa lang. Gusto ko din un, gustong gusto. Pero sa tingin ko naman, God has always been good to me. He balance things out. I am happy with my family, friends, and work. He keeps me preoccupied kaya siguro hindi ko madalas nararamdaman ung longing for someone na feeling. Pati ngayon, I feel so bless with everything I have now, na ang kinakatakot ko lang, if he gives me that perfect someone, he will challenge me more. Not that I am scared, I know he will always be there for me, he will not give me something I can’t handle. Pero at this point, wag muna, I cannot afford a bigger challenge, kaya siguro wala pa din.Im happy naman we. :)

Nate just said okay. :p

That’s me when drunk, I realize how emotional I am, and how vulnerable and weak I can get.

Sunday, January 8, 2012

100 Years of Happiness

 

New Coca Cola Commercial. :)

Pinanganak ka para maging maligaya. Ang mga kaibigan at pamilya mo, ang magpapakita kung paano.

-Lolo Mario

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Untitled

you were in a bar, with a friend and someone you like; let’s just name the guy you like, snow white. you know that snow white was really cute. you will do everything just for the two of you to be closer to each other.

as the cocktails took its effect on both of you, snow white noticed that someone was staring at him. the guy was older than the two of you, he was looking rugged and rich, and he wore a red cap probably to hide the thinning hairline on his face.  he also mentioned that when he went to the restroom a while ago, the guy staring at him followed him.

you just told him that it was normal. “you’re cute,” you said. but he was uneasy, irritated and he wants to go home.

good thing, aside from snow white, you have your friend with you.  you told him what’s going on and he just advised you to advise him not to get bothered. you did what your friend told you; however, the waitress started asking for snow white’s contact number, worst, another food server sent snow white a mango juice.  you tried your best to stay calm with what was going on; until you saw the guy in red cap staring at you, yes, you.

the ugly waitress returned, carrying a tissue paper and a pen. she then ask snow white’s number, and at that moment, she will not take no for an answer.  to convince your “date,” she even mentioned that the guy wearing the cap was rich.

snow white then gave his number, took another sip of his free mango juice, and requested you to go home. you and your friend agreed, it was time to end the madness that was happening.

after you bid snow white farewell and while you and your friend walked your way home, you started to get upset. not because of the drink or snow white but what the waitress commented.

she just said that the guy was rich. it was really rude and unpleasant because you were also in the bar to spend money. maybe not to buy snow white a mango juice, but the amount you spend on that night was really something. you were also offended because with the way she said it, she thought of snow white as a commodity – something that someone can buy. though he was cute, for sure he was not something that can fall for a piece of mango juice.

you were proud of snow white because he just opted to leave. tomorrow, you will just tell him to never accept drinks from anyone again. it’s dangerous. you were sad for the guy with the red cap because it made him look desperate – using money just to get something. and you were happy for yourself because you now knew that snow white was not meant for you.

at the end of the day, oh night, whatever, you thought, “sometimes, people can really be jerks.” *roll eyes*

Friday, January 6, 2012

Mema Post: 2001 Ms. Universe Final Question

 

i always love pageants. and what i love more about pageants are the way girls answer their final questions. for me, this set of girl were the smartest ms. universe finalist ever.

enjoy!

so, If you have to change one thing about your past, what would that be?

hehe.

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Milk The Pigeon

i was browsing google reader the other night when i stubmled upon this link. it talks about what  you can do to monetize your blog. pretty helpful link. i love the writing style of its author, its very personal, yet, very straight on.

immediately, i went to his website to know more about him and what was his blog all about. to my surprise, it has this header above.

image 

being a paulo coelho fanatic, i always believe in signs. it felt that the website was talking to me, telling me that this was what i need.

at my age, i am already at the stage where i have to really assess what i am going to do with my life. sometimes, i even get stressed because the feeling of really not suceeding the way i really want to succeed things irritates me. most of the time, i am lost – unsure of what i really want to do. the site told me that it was okay to felt this way, i’m not alone. but, the site will also tell you that, you really have to wake up now.

i then saw that he has this e-book that was free when you subscribe to his site. i love free things. haha. i already finished it last night and it was really awesome. the book was written in a way that it felt that it was talking to me. it discussed all the issues that grown ups, like me, were going through, and how you can deal with it. it has steps, you heard it right, it also has a process that will make you analyze yourself what you really want and don’t want to do, and from there, you just have to dream.

not just the typical dream, you have to dream boldly.

what i learn from the book?

lift isn’t perfect. sometimes, we lost track of our goals, and started living a life that we were really not meant to do. but, that’s okay. its comforting knowing that i am not alone with this thought, that it was normal feeling this way at my age. but you have to really wake up and start living the life that you want. not the life your parents wants for you, or what your job requires you to do, but a life that you will enjoy every moment of it.

im in the process of doing my manifesto now, it’s an intensive process and i’d rather keep it to myself. :p

you can get your own copy of the ebook by going to alex heyne’s website. its free, and for sure, you will love it. he also knows tagalog. he’s so cool. :)

Enjoy your day.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Orange Not Eating Fish

 Photo Credit

i know you will find this weird. i don’t eat fish but i eat sardines and tuna in can. haha.

it started when i was still i kid, i remember that my cousin ask me to eat those pink fish (cannot remember the name) and all of a sudden i started having rashes. i got scared. another incident was when my mom cooked grilled fish and i felt the thorn of the poor little thing on my throat. starting that day, i stopped eating fish.

it was really a struggle. when i was a kid, i love the smell of grilled fish and i cannot even eat it because i was afraid of getting thorn or having sudden allergic attacks. sometimes, my family was having steamed tilapia and since i don’t eat that, i opted to buy veggies on a carinderia near our place.

it also happened that my friends and i went to palaisdaan, a restaurant in lucena where sea foods were the delicacy, and i was left to eat their grilled pork while everyone was enjoying rellenong bangus. there was also an incident that i was in a place house, and after i saw that they have sinigang na bangus as viand, i told them that i’m so full and i don’t want to eat. i was really starving to death then. it was embarrassing, i know. but i know it will be more embarrassing if i will just eat rice at their place and not have any viand at all.

my mom even asks me this question before, what if for example you only have fish and there is nothing left to eat? i just told her that, “i will just burn the bridge when i get there!” haha. then, i told her, “i’m eating fish naman e, as long as it’s in can”

yes, i eat sardines and tuna in can. i’d rather have that the grilled fish, sinigang na fish, and all those yummy fish dishes out there. weird, right?

well, we are all weird in some aspects. and that is okay, you can always be yourself as long as you’re not hurting anyone.

i am just hoping that i will be able to finish a fish dish this year. im scared. :p

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

The Fallen Book 1

what was so cool about book one of the fallen? it had two books on it – the fallen and leviathan. now i’m wondering whether i should create two different reviews for the book. nah… haha.

it was a story about aaron, a nephilim, a being that was a product of an angel and a human. his sole purpose was to fulfill his prophecy, which was to bring all the fallen angels back to heaven. cool, huh? according to the book, there was a great battle when lucifer changed side and some angels sided with him. all angels who teamed up with lucifer will lose all their angel self and be transform into a normal human. that was the time an angel can be called a fallen. some angels also lost their wings by means of teaching something to a human that was inappropriate, examples will be wearing makeup, technology, and even fashion. since aaron’s prophecy was written way before the day he was born, a group of bad angels, the powers, were after him. they only have one plan, to kill the nephilim and make sure that the fallen angels will stay on earth.

part one of the book concentrated on aaron’s discovery of his tremendous skills. the day he turned 18, aaron started understanding different languages, went talking with animals, he was able to cure his animal, and he was now capable of sending a fallen angel to heaven.

of course with great strength comes great responsibility, or should i say, great conflicts. aaron lost his foster parents, and his brother who has special needs was taken by the powers to be their tracker, someone who will track the fallen angels.

leviathan, the book’s part two, still followed aaron’s adventure. however, aside from the powers as their antagonist, they have another villain that they need to face.

the name of the new villain was leviathan. he was a creature who ate all his victims and keeps them on a pouch inside his tummy. gross, i know. among his victims were gabriel (aaron’s talking dog), camael (his sidekick), and the archangel gabriel. you got it right, the monster defeated the archangel. shala!

of course, aaron was able to defeat the monster. however he still hasn’t saved his brother, and there are still a lot of things that he has to know which will be revealed on the future books.

the book was okay. however, i was never really that excited to finish it. that doesn’t mean that i don’t like it, though. its just that on the other books i read, the moment the conflict and the story became interesting, even if i don’t sleep, i will do everything just to finish it right away.

maybe because i already watched it on tv before, or because it just like harry potter angels edition i don’t know. but if you’re really into adventure stories, bad ass imagination, outstanding creativity, and a talking labrador, fallen is the book for you.

Monday, January 2, 2012

Bucket List

since my dear self scheduled post failed (i really don’t know what happened, haha), i am creating a bucket list. it took me a week to finally finalize what i need to do this year. it was really tough. though i know that i should treat this as a challenge in order for me to motivate myself, i have to also work on certain things.

compromise is synonymous with reality. and in my simple, boring and humble life as a regular office employee, i really need to work on things that will definitely work with my schedule, my pay and the other responsibilities that goes along with being a grown up.

i really have to start acting, thinking and deciding as a grown up.

with that being said, here’s the list.

the 10 things i must accomplish in 2012
  1. get new gadgets! – i have three things on my list this year – a laptop, a camera and a blackberry. since i sold my old laptop in exchange of a cow, i need to get a new one. getting my online account hacked really alarmed the hell out of me. this is on top of the things that i need to get this year. i am really not techie, but since i decided to maintain this blog, i badly need it. i really don’t know if i can take good pictures, but getting a camera will really help me. aside from that, i can also post pictures here. that will be sweet. i want a blackberry because i just want to have one. haha.
  2. learn to swim – …and hopefully, i will really learn.
  3. get my own place – i am still searching for that dream abode. haha. unfortunately, it’s really hard looking for a place that will fit my budget and my demands. but, i am still hopeful. for this one, giving up is really not an option.
  4. cook a dish – i really don’t know how to cook. so this will really be a challenge.
  5. go solo backpacking or with one friend only – i got the idea from pm, and it will really be an adventure if i will be able to accomplish this.
  6. finish a meal with fish on itayan na, lumalabas na ang kaartehan ko, haha. i don’t eat fish, and it will be surprising for everyone who knew me that i’ve tried and finish one.
  7. fall in love again – i know. the moment has come.
  8. take my family on a vacation – since i am working here in manila and my folks are everywhere, it will be amazing if even for just one day, we will be enjoying the same view together.
  9. encourage someone to create a blog – i just want someone to have the same experience, that i felt. the moment i started writing again. :)
  10. go back to school – going back to school sounds fun. learning new things is always fun.
i think this will do. it’s doable, workable, achievable and it sounds fun – it also come in lower case. i love everything on lower case. haha

definitely, 2012 is my year. i can feel it (sabay arte ng balikat.)

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Dear Self,


The reason why I’m doing this is because I want you to know how proud I am of you. You did great this year. Also, I want everything documented. So if the world will not end on December 26, 2012, we will have something to read back and assess. It sounds crazy doing this, I know, but please understand that there are a lot of things that I want you to know. Don’t worry, I promise I will make it short. I will try.

First, I know I promised you a lot of times that I will change, or that I will do better. And, I know, that I failed you a lot of times. But for sure you were aware of what were the things that the two of us had been through. Though we’d achieved a lot of things this year, we’d also failed a lot times. I'm sorry if I made you feel bad most of the times, if there were times that I made you think that I do not care about you, but seriously, I do.

I’m still unsure of the things that will happen. But, as what your favorite author always say, sometimes you have to live for what is happening now, it’s not that we don’t have to worry about the future. But you only have one life to live and if you will not do the things that we want now, when? Maybe you should start avoiding this philosophy and just use it when need. Sorry, when both of us are capable.

You have a lot of plans. Don’t worry, I will really do my best to get healthy and fit this coming year. You are already minimizing on my rice intake so I hope that will do the trick. Once you lose enough weight, you will definitely go on swimming lessons so we can start enjoying the beach and pool parties. You will never be another wallflower again, I assure you that. I will really do my best to quit smoking this year. Maybe you can get a less stressful job, or friends who will motivate you to stop smoking. Okay, we can try the former. J

Now that we are talking about getting a less stress job, don’t you think it’s time to resign? Seriously, I really don’t want to entertain the thought. Before, you just resign because you want to, because the pay is not worth it, and because the company was not even helping you grow.  But, you have plans. How can you start your adventures if you really don’t have much? Yes, you can start saving money, but we know each other pretty well. Every time you save money, something bad happens which make us use your savings. Maybe, you can get a part time job? But staying in an office for almost 11 hours then work for another four hours will kill us both, so you just have to start applying and make sure that you will get an offer that you’d never had before. You have to start from there. Don’t worry; if they will not hire you, we still have our current employer who will surely not get rid of us. Haha.

Here are that things that you should get next year. Hmm… a laptop -- since you sold your old one, a camera, a place of your own, and a lot of guts to fall in love again. Don’t forget to enroll on a MBA; it’s better for your resume. You need to visit at least 10 provinces next year, aside from Quezon and Cavite. Most importantly, you need to experience riding a new vehicle next year.

Lastly, just continue writing.

Just be strong, and I promise you that I will be stronger for you. Who know what will happen next year? All I know is we are stronger when you and I are together, we can move mountains!

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Scheduled post.

Siyempre hindi lumabas ung post... Haha. Asar. :)

To the best Blog Readers in the world - Happy New Year. Thank you for making my 2011 extra special. I am so excited for 2012!

Party! :)