Saturday, April 20, 2013


When The Company started printing and reading our YM conversations to ensure that all stuff being talked about over messenger are work related, everyone was aghast!

I was loathing.Well, who wouldn't be?

Things got more interesting when one of my supervisor was tasked to read all conversations and make a report about it. Imagine your the supervisor and you have to read your subordinates talking things about you. And they are not pretty. Haha. It made my Sup so stressed that she never talked to us weeks after it happened.

Among all the Christmas greetings, the HIs and Hellos, and all the gossips that circulated through the YM conversations, there were talks about one office mate who flirted with people while at work. Haha. It was crazy. She really proved that our senior officers were correct.

Mommy, being  diplomatic and caring about all of her employees, just told us that whatever was talked about in YM and all the things personal will remain confidential. What she also said amazed me, like when we talked about our office mate who were chatting with men while working. She just said that, "lahat ng tao may landi, lahat tayo may ginagawang mali, so wala tayong dapat iworry, kasi kung ano man ang kanya, kanya lang yun."

I always remember those words in moments where I feel that I committed something unforgivable. Specially when you are faced with situations that are too out of your control. All of us have our own share of bad attitude, probably some of us committed something that we are not proud of. There are things I am not proud of, but I acknowledge all the bad things I've done in my life and I am trying my best to make things right.

And I guess, if people will judge you because of all the faults you made, hmm, I will tell them to check themselves first. :D

*image from here

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Oh My, Orange Mist!

this is how it looks like. :)

Four hours after my shift, I was at the Computer Shop maximizing the X3 experience buff thas was given by NCSOFT to all AION players becuase its their anniversary. Then, it happened. My eyes hurt because of the glare and the lack of sleep but I was still able to see Orangemist (My Character's Name) transparent wings signalling that I advance another level. What made it more exciting was it will be the last time you will see those wings, for now, because my character's level reached it maximum. Yes, my toon just turned level 60.

The feeling was superb. Its like graduating college and the only thing you will be left to do is to reflect all those years spent studying. It was exhilerating. As the congratulatory messages started pouring in from all over the world, I remember how difficult things have been for me. Starting the game not even knowing anything, using W, A, S and D to move, getting bullied by the other race because they are too afraid that you might beat the hell out of them, trying to avoid aerial battles because you're not good at flying, all those bosses that made your head aches becuase you need to learn how to handle them, and maximizing your level not focusing on your gears, damn, I am really proud of myself! Haha.

Now that I am level sixty, maybe you are thinking what is left to do in AION, right? Maybe my Gamer friends will say that you can just get rich or start all over again with another character. Well, you can reallly do that. But right now, there are still a lot of things to do with Orangemist. The first thing I am working on is my gear (clothes you wear in the game). Then I am trying to enter as many instance (dungeons in other games) as possible, that way, you will only be called noob once. Haha. And finally, I am just improving my character so the moment the new patch of the game is released in June, I have nothing to fear.

The reason why online games is so addicting is the fulfillment you get every time you achieve something in the game. An online game is like life - you will be given skills needed to survive but it will be up to you what type of attack combination you will use to excel. There will be obstacles and people that may block your way, however, as long as you're ready, every thing will be okay. You will reach your limit at some point, but that must not stop you from improving.

I started AION clueless if I will ever reach max. And now that I just did, I feel that I can face anything in the game. I feel amazed.

Just like real life - you will doubt yourself, get scared, struggle, fight, bleeed and even lost something, but at the end of the day, its still the experience you gained and the lessons learned that matters.

Monday, April 15, 2013

Random Orange Part 4

Okay. Okay. Random Post! :D

Paumanhin naman. Actually, hindi naman talaga ako sabaw, ayaw ko lang mawala nalang ang mga tumatakbo sa isip ko na hindi ko man lang naisusulat sa kung saan. Haha. Since my blog ako, dito nalang po. Pwede naman siguro diba? Haha.

* Ayun, ang pinakahighlight ng linggo ko ay ang pagbalik ko sa manila. Dala dala ang isang bag ng mga damit at ang sobrang tiwala ko sa aking sarili. Nakakuha ako ng room worth PHP 2,800. Okay naman siya - malaki para sa akin, medyo tahimik ang place at ang higit sa lahat walang pakialam ang may-ari sa mga ginawa, ginagawa at gagawin mo. Pero siyempre lahat ng bagay may kaukulang responsibilidad. At kapag mangungupahan ka, ang pinaka mahirap ay ang papakiramdaman mo kung parehas ba kayo ng saltik sa utak ng mga kasama mo sa bahay.

Nasabi ko na ba na magjowang tomboy ang may ari ng tinitirhan ko ngayon? Haha. Serious.Pero baka iniisip niyo na yung magpartner ay isang super gandang babae at isang sobrang gwapo na babae, sorry, mali. Dahil ang nakakaaliw sa kanila, parehas silang mas lalaki pang kumilos sa akin. Astig diba?

Isa lang ang problema ko sa bahay ko ngayon. WALA AKONG BINTANA! Haha! 'Tragis talaga. Kung kailan nakapagbayad na ako ng advance, nakabili na ng mga kagamitan saka ko mapapansin na walang nilalabasan ang init sa kwarto. And good luck naman sa napakamasalimuot na global warning diba. Iniisip ko nalang na nauubos ang taba ko pag natutulog, haha.

*Ang dami kong nababasa recently. Haha. Hindi naman siya mga libro, mga threads sa PEX, mga emo post ng mga bloggers, at sa ngayon, iniisip ko ang mga blind items ni Senyor. May isang part din sa mga nakapost na napapagisip ako. May idea ako, pero ayaw ko lang itolerate ang thought. Kung ano man yun? Secret. Walang Clue.

At nawala na ang mga bagay na nasa isip ko. Sabi ko na nga ba, mawawala ang mga ito kapag nailabas na. Haha.

Thank you for wasting your time with me. Ingat parati. :D


Thursday, April 11, 2013


I left the province with a bag of clothes and nothing else but my faith in the Lord and myself. It was tough - leaving your family, becoming independent again, starting out (all over again) in the big city hoping thing will turn out well this time.

Inhale. Exhale.

If I have a choice, I will just stay in the province. However, there are things in life where you don't make your own choice. You just let them happen because if you don't, things will be more difficult.

Manila, welcome me back!

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Its Me, Your Prince

Father, Its me, your Prince.

And Father, I am weak.

I am ruthless, rude, sarcastic, and horrible.

Father, I am a monster, in my own little ways.

Not realizing how gigantic little things can get.

Father, I am always tempted to do bad things.

My ambition sometimes forced me to concentrate on loving myself

Than being selfless and start caring for others

Moments happened where I don’t recognize myself anymore

Questioning, who I am? Is this the son you created?

Am I what you wanted?

In the middle of all the harsh things, you always blind me.

By your presence, by your love, and by the things you teach.

You remind me that I am still your prince in my own little ways.

Because you know that a thousand mile starts from a single step.

And in that stretch, though I sometimes let go of your hands,

You are still beside me.

Holding me, protecting me, and loving me.

Father, I know sometimes I am not worth it of your love.

A monster doesn’t deserve your love.

And in days where I am so confuse, you cover me with your blood.

Cleansing me, renewing me, and loving me.

Father, I will always be sorry for my sins.

I will always promise to try my best to never commit them again.

And in days where I break such,

Forgive me. Forgive me if I cannot forgive myself.

My lord, I lift all my burdens to you,

All the things I am scared of and all the things that disappoints you.

Just never let go, because I won’t.

Just never lose faith in me, because I will always have faith in you.

Just be there, as always.

And I will be eternally grateful.

You are the reason why I am alive.

You, my Lord, are the reason why I change.

You are the reason why I forgive myself.

And you are the reason why I became fearless.

You are bigger than everything.

And knowing that you are my father makes me feel

Greater than all things

This is my official entry to Joy's Letter To God Contest

Saturday, April 6, 2013

I Am The Only Catholic In the Family

I posted this on PEX a week ago, and to my surprise, it created a buzz in the whole Realm of Thought world. Which is why I am posting it here now. Let me know your thoughts. :D

I was baptized and grew up Catholic -- Going to church on Sundays, fasting during lent, etc. Basically, my family practice what normal Catholic does.

Until I went to Manila to work and while I was at the city, I found out that my family change religion. My mom and my sisters are now born again Christians. I really have no problem with it however every time I go home to the province it feels weird going to church (which used to be a family thing) alone.

I really don't want to get converted, however my Mom started introducing me to their church by having bible studies at home when I am there, she also introduced me to their pastor, and sometimes she quotes the bible when we have dinner.

Anyone else in the same boat?

Monday, April 1, 2013


A Round Table Challenge

A midst the obstacles and the reasons,

We learn to hang on to the things we love

And we lost all the things we worked hard for.

As I start to rewrite our story

The words started to not make sense.

It was messy. It lacked cohesion, and it was ugly.

A heart shaped wreckage floating in the wind.

Still, we need to continue.

Though inaudible, the songs will blast our ears.

We may not be in the same pace

And our worlds may be universe apart

But the melodies brought us here

Safe and sound, with eyes wide open,

And In a state of grace.

The story of us may end with death

But death is just a phase

What happens next is the big finale

And I cannot be more excited

For Forever and always.

Where, there, I will hear your voices in my dreams.

10. Death

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