Me: So kailan ka last nagpacheck?
I ask Mother Wendy (MW) after she told me that once of my ex office mate have AIDS. It was a usual Sunday and we are having halo halo for lunch.
MW: Bakit? May ginawa ka ba na dapat mong ipagpacheck?
There was silence. As I reflect on all the things I did, it never occur to me to get myself tested for HIV. Maybe because I am not really that active in terms of sex. I cannot even remember the last time I did it, hahaha.
MW: Beks, kasi kilala ko ang sarli ko, alam ko ang mga ginagawa ko, at mga hindi ko dapat gawin.
I am not sure if the argument was valid.
ME: Ako din naman, to be honest, makulit lang ako, mukhang makati, pero kapag andiyan na, tumitiklop din.
Well, ex office mate is different. He is the type who has Grindr, who gives the look every where, and now, he is using this as an excuse for his bad attendance record.
MW: Shock nga ako kasi bakit parang kinukwento pa niya sa iba. Alam mo yun parang okay lang na malaman ng iba na may ganoon siya.
ME: Baka naman press release lang. Alam mo yun, sympathy card. Para huwag siyang tanggalin.
MW: Pero beks, lagi siyang tulog. Minsan nga, habang nag eemail siya, bigla nalang siya pipikit tapos hirap niyang gisingin.
Then, I realize that I have limited knowledge about the disease. Though, I know how to be careful not to have it, still, there are still things I am not familiar with. I do not know if sleepiness is an indication of it. All I remember is that I am not sure how will I feel. It is hard reading stories about it, but it is harder having someone you know have it. But it made me realize how real it can get, and I need to be extra careful. Well, we all need to be.