Finding Bravery (A Random Post)

My hands shakes as I start typing these words. I know. Its been a month since my absence without leave and I am really ashamed of myself.

Forgive me. I will try not to make excuses but allow me to explain myself. :)

First, I got promoted. Who would have thought? I know I have been blabbing about leaving my current post, and I seriously cannot wait to render my resignation, but because of a selfish being who lives in Bacolod, I cannot do that anytime soon. What happened? Since our job deals with money matters, we really try our best to be extra cautious every time you do something. And there was one incident last April that lead me to being stuck in the company, we credited 60K to someone in mistake. We tried talking to the person who received the money but she started making excuses, then she started hiding, then though we tried our best to cooperate with her. Cooperation is like love, it works both ways. So here I am trying my best to find my cheerful self in spite of all the things that are happening, paying for something that I never earned, and hoping that we will still find a way to get the money back. Hey, maybe you know someone from Bacolod who can threat this person. A police, barangay tanod, a man with a big dog, a judge, or someone who has mastery with the dark arts? Hahaha! That will help us tremendously. Leave a comment, please.

What else? Hmm... I read a lot of books in my absence. I finished Dan Brown's Inferno, most of John Greene's books, and now I am still trying to finish the Pretty Little Liars series. I will try talking about it next time if courage never left me. :P

My world change ever since Google shut down Reader. Seriously, you don't understand. Though I never comment on anything recently, I read most of your posts. And now that Google shut down Reader (paulit-ulit? hehe), I really cannot view your posts in the office. I am still working on moving my station near the window so I can steal some of our building's WIFI and use Feedly, and since that is not happening yet, please bear with me. :D I am really doing my best. Haha.

I still live in Cavite, however it is not as grueling as my previous posts. I'm starting to love living with my family again. Though the long travel time still keeps me exhausted, I am starting to appreciate the perks of being dependent again.

For the mean time, we will just stick with this information. Till next time. I miss everyone! :D

Random Orange Part 4

Okay. Okay. Random Post! :D

Paumanhin naman. Actually, hindi naman talaga ako sabaw, ayaw ko lang mawala nalang ang mga tumatakbo sa isip ko na hindi ko man lang naisusulat sa kung saan. Haha. Since my blog ako, dito nalang po. Pwede naman siguro diba? Haha.

* Ayun, ang pinakahighlight ng linggo ko ay ang pagbalik ko sa manila. Dala dala ang isang bag ng mga damit at ang sobrang tiwala ko sa aking sarili. Nakakuha ako ng room worth PHP 2,800. Okay naman siya - malaki para sa akin, medyo tahimik ang place at ang higit sa lahat walang pakialam ang may-ari sa mga ginawa, ginagawa at gagawin mo. Pero siyempre lahat ng bagay may kaukulang responsibilidad. At kapag mangungupahan ka, ang pinaka mahirap ay ang papakiramdaman mo kung parehas ba kayo ng saltik sa utak ng mga kasama mo sa bahay.

Nasabi ko na ba na magjowang tomboy ang may ari ng tinitirhan ko ngayon? Haha. Serious.Pero baka iniisip niyo na yung magpartner ay isang super gandang babae at isang sobrang gwapo na babae, sorry, mali. Dahil ang nakakaaliw sa kanila, parehas silang mas lalaki pang kumilos sa akin. Astig diba?

Isa lang ang problema ko sa bahay ko ngayon. WALA AKONG BINTANA! Haha! 'Tragis talaga. Kung kailan nakapagbayad na ako ng advance, nakabili na ng mga kagamitan saka ko mapapansin na walang nilalabasan ang init sa kwarto. And good luck naman sa napakamasalimuot na global warning diba. Iniisip ko nalang na nauubos ang taba ko pag natutulog, haha.

*Ang dami kong nababasa recently. Haha. Hindi naman siya mga libro, mga threads sa PEX, mga emo post ng mga bloggers, at sa ngayon, iniisip ko ang mga blind items ni Senyor. May isang part din sa mga nakapost na napapagisip ako. May idea ako, pero ayaw ko lang itolerate ang thought. Kung ano man yun? Secret. Walang Clue.

At nawala na ang mga bagay na nasa isip ko. Sabi ko na nga ba, mawawala ang mga ito kapag nailabas na. Haha.

Thank you for wasting your time with me. Ingat parati. :D

AkoSiOrange

Random Orange Part 3

Okay, hindi naman talaga ako sabaw. Haha. May mga dapat akong ipost kaso since medyo busy ako sa mga bagay bagay na hindi dapat pinagkakaabalahan (online games, lols), gagawa nalang ako ng random post. Hello Hello pala sa mga bagong dating sa blog ko! Masaya akong nandito kayo at naappreciate ang mga kaartehan ko sinusulat ko. Hindi man ako nakakapagreply agad sa mga comments niyo, asahan niyo na binabasa ko silang lahat sa office. Nakakataba sila ng puso, pero hindi nakaka high blood. :D

Random Post pala ito.

* After ng resignation ni Mommy, maraming mas masalimuot na kaganapan sa team namin. Namatay ang nanay ng office mate ko dahil sa motorcycle accident, nakunan ang isa kong team mate at kasalukuyang nakaleave na ng two months, kaya ito, 11 nalang kami sa team ngayon. Nagbabadya na naman ang "paalam summer post," pero umpisa palang naman ng March kaya I am still hoping for the best.

* Nagbabadya na talaga ang pagreresign ko sa company. Hindi ko palang ma point out ang exact date. Alam niyo ngayon, kinakabahan na akong mag risk ulet. Three years in a company is really good for your resume, pero siyempre tinitignan ko pa din ang possibility na makakita ng company where I will stay forever. Siguro ganoon naman talaga kapag tumatanda nagmamature na.

* Masaya ako na marami na akong bloggers na nakakachat sa FB, hehe. Alam niyo yun, pakiramdam ko nawawalan na ako ng anonymity (wow, lols). Pasensiya na sa mga nagtatatangkang makita ako sa facebook, masyadong twisted ang privacy settings ko at hindi ko na siya maayos ulet. Haha! Bopols lang talaga ako sa facebook.

* Level 54 na ang nagmamaganda kong Chanter (Class Name) sa AION. Haha! Anim na levels nalang max level na. Konting panahon nalang, makakatulog na rin ako ng husto.

* Alam ko madalang akong nakakapagcomment sa mga post niyo. Wag po kayong magtatampo, maniwala man kayo at sa hindi, lahat ng blogs niyo asa Google Reader ko at binabasa ko kapag may updates kayo. Pakiusap lang pala sa may mga "read more" sa page, patanggal po. lols. Intro lang kasi ang nakikita sa Reader. lels.

* Kahit na ang harot harot ng Bubbles. Nalulungkot akong dahil bading si Sebastian Castro. *insert sad face*

* Pwede naman pala akong mag blog ng tagalog kahit hindi sasali sa contest ng Damuhan, haha! Mema lang. :D

Ano pa ba? Un nalang siguro muna.

Salamat sa pagsasayang ng oras niyo sa page ko, mga Idol!

11 Random Things

After I answered the 11 questions thing, a blogger commented that the post was lacking something. Well, I never expected that I still have to place eleven random things about me, I just thought that you will have answerPM's question then ask another 11 questions to 11 people. Haha!

For fairness, here are the 11 random things about me.

1. I grew up in a place called La Charina. It is a subdivision in Muntinlupa which is just beside the South Luzon Expressway. All the houses looked exactly the same. The only difference I guess the color of the houses and the gardens in front of it.

2. My favorite subject in High School was Social Studies. I love history. The subject I hate the most was Economics, I just don't understand then why you have to relate the Law of Supply and Demand to inflation then to its effect on the GDP of the country. It was pretty toxic.

3. I am the eldest child. There are four children in my family, three girls and me. Here's the catch, my father have other families and to count how many children that he have, from what I've heard, there were nine of us. I only met one of my step sisters, she's still young. I just hope my other siblings are okay.

4. I speak faster than I think. Haha

5. I used to work in a call center. I've been part of the industry for five years before transferring to my current job. My last job was being a QA Analyst for a US Bank.

6. My first course in college was Accountancy. I really want to be a Chemical Engineer because aside from History, I love Chemistry. However PUP doesn't have that course so I just took my second choice. I never expected that Accountancy will be that hard, after two years, I shifted to a Finance course.

7. LJ was really not my nickname. People used to call me Lourd. When I started working, I need an American Sounding name and that was the closest that I can get. Since then, people started calling me LJ.

8. I don't have any professional writing experience.

9. Favorite foods? I love foods that you can normally see in a children's party – spaghetti, fried chicken, lumpiyang shanghai, ice cream, cake, and hotdog with marshmallow.

10. Aside from Orange, my next favorite color is Blue.

11. I am posting this using my email. Isn't that sweet?

Have a great day, every body!

Random Orange III

Never go to an interview after a 10 hour shift.

Never go to an interview at 9:00 pm tapos umuulan pa at walang masakyan paputa sa venue, the stress will drain you tapos…

you will screw up, hahaha…. nakakahiya! :)

Random Orange II

okay, random post. :)

- one week na akong morning shift! one week na nagbabarong pag pumasok sa work, kumakain sa megamall pag lunch, at higit sa lahat one week na tumatanggap ng tawag kasi mas madaming tumatawag sa umaga. sa nakaraang linggo, pakiramdam ko para akong zombie, kasi ba naman isang linggo na rin akong nakakatulog ng hating gabi at nagigising ng 5am. pakenshit, right? siguro ito ang napapala pag galing ka sa panggabi, pero iba kasi ang case ko, isang taon akong asa panggabi tapos biglang morning nalang. kahit umiinom na ako ng stress tabs pag gabi, hindi ko talagang magawang makatulog ng maaga. buti nalang rest day na tomorrow, kaso kailangan namang maglaba, baka mamurder ng laundry shop ang barong kong bagong bago, kasi isang taon siyang natago sa baul bago nagamit. hahaha.

- nakabili na ako ng book number 2, for sure narinig niyo na iyon, siguro ‘kapag gumawa nalang ako ng post about the book ko sabihin kung ano yun. pero clue, tagalog book. :)

- nagapply pala ako ng part time. hmm… isa siguro sa pinaka hindi ko siguradong ginawa sa buhay ko ang part time na yun. haha. alam ko naman na nagsusulat ako, pero hindi ko lang sigurado kung may magbabayad sa akin para sumulat ng isang bagay. sana lang, as in sana lang, every thing turn out well, para kahit papaano mag tuloy tuloy na.

- i am already planning a solo trip. may napili na akong lugar, hindi palang ako nagsisimulang magplan ng itenerary kasi ayaw ko naman talaga ng itenerary. parang mas masaya na pumunta nalang sa isang lugar, maupo sa buhangin, damhin ang init ng haring araw at pakinggan ang alon. what can you say about BOLINAO?

- sobrang thank you pala sa 21 kong followers, saka sa mga friends ko from wordpress na walang sawang bumabalik sa orange kong mundo. haha. as i checked my stats, mayroon na akong 8500+ na views, haha. not bad. you make me happy guys. salamat talaga.

ito muna, kasi masyado na akong antok. may book pa na kailangang basahin at barong na kailangang ibabad sa ariel. haha.

have a great weekend.

Random Orange

Another team mate got pregnant. It’s good news because another member will be added in our little family in the office. On the downside, she needs to go on bed rest for a week. That means, no one should go on unplanned leave because we are under staff again.

Every time someone I knew got pregnant, my respect for woman intensified. I know its hard having a baby, the physical and emotional aspect of it seems frightening. However, I asked my friend who just gave birth on her first baby how it really felt giving birth, she just told me that “it’s one of the best thing that happened to her.”

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I still haven’t moved out. The house that I planned to get is now occupied, damn you, SSS for delaying my salary loan. Haha. Now, I am still asking my contacts in V. Luna if they can get me a room or a house where I can stay. I really want to move out before I change my schedule this coming January.

Next month, I will be on morning shift. I really don’t want to change my schedule. However, my superiors informed me on our previous meeting that our HR Team started to notice that I was on night shift almost a year, now. Changing my schedule next month is already mandatory. But I am still planning how I can stir things up.

I am really not use to going to work in the morning. Basing it on experience, I am more productive whenever I work at night. I also noticed that whenever I work in the morning, sometimes, I am late. Most of the time, I am on unplanned leave.

I’d rather stay working in the evening.

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I already received an email from Ms. N that she already received the books! I am just waiting for the pictures. This is really exciting. I can’t wait to see the children’s reactions the moment they received my Christmas Gift.