The Orange Mail

   

Hello,

Who would have thought that a blog activity will be the reason why I will remember you? And, oh, I remember you well. I have a lot of things to say, but before I go emotional with this introduction, let me first tell you that I love you, and I will always believe in you.

Times will get tougher.

You will move to a different place where you will have no friends, not even a single acquaintance. Never fret, though. You have Mama and your sisters, and you will always have me. Most of the time you will be alone, but that will be way better than being lonely. Your parents will never get back together. Be thankful that it will happen because you will never see them hurt each other again. You will be able to sleep better because Mama will not cry na. You will even see her in a happy mode because all of her problems will subsides.

Moments will come where you will be confused. You will be scared. Never worry because you will make the right decision. In time, you will be happier, surrounded with fabulous friends, and amazing experiences because you made the right choice. You will be involved with several people, for several reasons, most of them will not give you the fairy tale ending that you always opted. But let me remind you that you are not a princess, not even close to being a damsel in distress, but you will be as strong as the Wicked Witch, probably as cruel as Cinderella’s evil step sisters, but will always be as loving and caring as the Prince. Never let someone save you, find ways to save yourself.

If there is a thing that will be easy, I think that will be the subjects that you will take in college.Haha! There will be one problem though; you will not end up with your career of choice. God will always be good, though. He will compensate in tremendous of ways. Way bigger than both of us can even fathom. Just never lose faith and never let go from his grip.

No matter how hard things may get, you will always be special, not just for me, but also for the people you will meet. You will discover something new, a talent that you never thought you have. Just make sure you keep your focus on your dreams for yourself and for your family and everything will flow according to our plans.

Eventually, the tough times will end. Just believe, and get yourself working.

You will always be meaningful to me, not just because I love and believe in you tremendously, but because you will always be a part of me. Don’t get confused if suddenly, you will never recognize yourself, because what you will see is a better version of you -- Someone who will fulfill all your heart’s desire.

Just keep moving forward. And if you will get a chance to look back, never forget what you’ve been through. That will motivate and help you to greatness.

If the moment comes where you will not be able to take the chaos that is going into your world. Don’t even get frightened, I will always be here, and I promise I will help you make things easier. We will remove the ghost together.

Lastly, thank you. Thank you for always sticking to your morals and values, for being braver that you thought you can be, and for dreaming big unselfishly. I appreciate everything you are doing and I promise, I will do my best to never let you down.

I will always be here.

Talk to you soon,

LJ

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To end the 30 Days of Blogging Honesty, we must complete a Dare. And I guess writing to your sixteen year old self is really tough, its hard reminiscing the way you feel when you were younger.

Category: Youngins
Write a letter to your 16-year-old self and post it. Detail your journey.

Day 30: The Final Question

Day 30 — One question or subject matter if I were asked here on 30 Days of Blogging Honesty I know I would refuse to answer or definitely lie about is…

Aside from something that I really don’t understand, I think it will be something about smoking.

It was September 22, 2006 when I started smoking. I can still remember how it happened. It was my rest day from work, and I just came home from school. I was sitting in front of my first ever boarding house in Sta. Mesa, watching my housemates play badminton. Then two housemates came out, and since I was still trying to make some friends that time, I joined them. They went to the street corner; Julius bought the cigarettes while Ron and I waited. I was watching them both, when all of a sudden; the curious kid in me appeared. I thought that it only happens in TV shows where first timers will try puffing the smoke and while the gas is still in their chest, make a loud cough. Believe me, it happens. It was painful, uncomfortable and yet, it was liberating. Though they never taught me how to smoke the cigarette, but I was able to learn thru a classmate who was smoking since we were on freshmen year. I never looked back since then. All of a sudden I was joining my officemates in their yosi breaks, spending my breaks at school smoking with my classmates and I learned how to use a lighter. :D

Ron already quit. I really have no idea what happened to my classmates who smoke as well. And, my officemates before, we still have coffee outside Starbucks because some of us still smoke.

Now, back to the question! It will definitely be it. Because I know it is something that I am really not comfortable talking about. If someone will ask me how much do I consume a day, sometimes, I just refuse to answer, I create an alibi, and worst, I lie. I will not even try explaining, because no matter what I will say, it will still end up to smoking is bad in tremendous of ways. In the six years that I have been smoking, I never taught someone how to smoke, if someone will try it in front of me for the first time, I will just tell them to never attempt, because smoking is bad in tremendous of ways.

So never ask me anything about my smoking habits, because you will never get a sincere answer. _________________________________________________________________________

Who would have thought that I will complete this? Thanks Tom for this amazing experience!

Day 29: The Sherlock Holmes Addiction

Day 29 — My television is showing the same show on every channel. I really don’t mind watching ____________ (from the 1960′s) and I really love this show because…

I was born last 1985, so I really have no idea what were the shows in the 60s.

I watch the TV a lot and there are really some shows that I get addicted to. Reality shows has been my favorites. Glee and Smash has been fantastic because I am really into music. But nothing beats Mystery Stories.

Enter Sherlock Holmes the classic TV series.

Ever since I found out that there was such shows, I immediately watch every single episode of it. Well, the stories from the books will always be better, and Sherlock Holmes is really portrayed here the way I really visualize him. I just wish both of them were younger. Anyways, I really have no problem watching the show over and over and over, and another over again.

But, is this shown in the 60s?

Day 28: The Battle

Day 28 — If I could do one thing that is socially unacceptable and know I would not be judged, I would…

This is me thinking way outrageously!

I am currently reading Battle Royale. It is sort of like The Hunger Games but it is way brutal, more bloody and more deadly. It is set in a fictional country where they choose a class of Juniors, send them on a deserted island to kill each other until only one player survives.

Obviously, that is something I really want to do. Take part in a game where you can go on a killing spree. I think I have a good chance of winning, I am tactical and analytical enough to probably win the whole thing without even killing somebody. I just hope I will win, though. Teehee.

This post is making me uncomfortable. hahaha!

Day 27: The Inner Voice

Day 27 — I have an inner voice, and if a friend spoke to me the way my inner voice does at times, I would…

There will be a big possibility that I will freak out. I will definitely think that maybe that person can access my mind and can go through my thoughts and that cannot happen.

But my inner voice has been my friend for quite a while now. It has been a great help in making spontaneous and quick decision. It finds me every time I feel lost. My inner voice also reminds me of the things that matters.

My inner voice is cool.

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Day 26: The Crime

Day 26 — I would break the law to save a loved one if…

It is a matter of life and death.

But only to some extent. Depending what law will I break. Please don’t ask me to kill someone because I never handle blood easily. Don’t ask me to steal because if I have to do that, probably I will just pay for what I will take. Never ask me to forge a document, because for sure, I will be caught. Lastly, never ask for to rape a girl because I will pretend that I never heard it. :D

I don’t know. So far, I never imagined myself in prison paying for a crime that I will make. Maybe I will just burn the bridge once I get there.

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Day 25: The Pet Peeve

Day 25 — My biggest pet peeve that has nothing to do with blogging, being online, computers or anything else related to the Internet is…

If this question will just be, “my biggest pet peeve is?” This will be easy. Hands down, it will be person who “like” their own status on Facebook. Example! Someone will say “Good Morning” and then the first click of the blue thumb up sign will be coming from him as well. Can someone please explain to me why do they have to do that? No offense meant, but I really don’t see the logic of it, or probably, I am just being a bitch by noticing a lot of things, but seriously, I never understand it. #sharelang

But since this has nothing to do with anything related to the internet, I guess the most common thing that really gets me agitated is waiting.

Who loves waiting? Haha!

 

I can really get nasty with people who waste my time. Ever since high school, though I cram a lot on individual projects, when it comes to stuff that requires group effort, I cannot remember the incident where I was the cause of delay on something. When there is a group meeting, I was early. Every time the group leader will assign me a task that needs to be done on a particular day, I finished two days ahead. I learned to respect someone else’s time because I really want them to respect mine as well.

When I was working as a CSR, since there is a handling time (how long should you take a call), I really notice that I get irate easily if the customer is really taking too much of my time.

So if someone will beat around the bush when explaining something, asks me to wait for 30 minutes while I was there 15 minutes ahead the schedule, and tends to lax while I am already cramming to finish a report, expect me to be ill-tempered. Expect that I will not treat you nicely. Lastly, expect that I will never forget.

I know the world will be wonderful if we have tolerance and understanding. But, it will be better if we learn to be considerate with others.

Day 24: The Voice

When I saw the question for today, I was like, Dang, why did I answer the alternate question so early? Haha!

Day 24 — Given the choice between having to live the rest of my life without my voice, or living the rest of my life without the ability to hear, I would choose…

Good thing that losing my eyesight forever is not part of the options, because for sure, this will be more difficult to answer.

Ever since I started working, my voice has been one of my most precious possessions. Some say I really sound good over the phone and a couple of drunken friends mentioned that I sing well. It will be sad not being able to speak. Knowing how talkative and opinionated I can get, surely, it will be hell.

But I guess being incapable of hearing is tougher because some of the great things that a person can experience are being transmitted to the brain using your ears. A baby’s first words, the sound of birds in the forest, waves crashing on the shore, and music, it will be harder not being able to experience this things.

And since I really cannot live without music, I’d rather live the rest of my life without my voice.

As much as it hurts, I think I can still express myself even though I cannot speak. Probably, I will just write somewhere if I need to say something, or use the power of body language if I want to voice out a thought. At least, I still have my ears to understand someone. I can still watch Smash and listen to its songs and just sing on my head. I wonder how I will look if ever you caught me doing such. Maybe I will just look for a job that doesn’t require speaking – I think I can be a chat support representative somewhere. haha!

Now I realized how fortunate I am. Aside from I can still do both, I still have other senses to help me experience life on a happier note!

Day 22: The One

The questions for the next two days are interesting. Enter, Day 22!

Day 22 — Allowing another person to fully love me means they must…

When I was younger, I always thought that you will have the perfect person for you. Someone who has a decent job, good looking enough, and wonderful enough that he will be one of the reasons why you keep on viewing life on an optimistic note. But reality sucks, people grow old, and the people you sometimes meet will be the opposite of the things that you wanted.

I know I can get a little complicated in terms of relationships. I may sound demanding, but once I am with someone, I know how to compromise.

So now, in order to allow someone to love me, I think the sole thing that will matter for me is acceptance.

He must accept that I can get weird, moody and I don’t know how to do a lot of things. He must know that sometimes I need to be alone and be left on my own space. That I rarely do PDAs, and I really am not the showy type in public. He must accept that sometimes, I can really argumentative if I know I am on point and sometimes, I get irritated easily.

He must accept that family matters and I will do everything for my folks. He must value learning and understand that sometimes I will focus more on my books than him.

Lastly, he must accept that I am not ready, yet. And if someone will be able to wait, I will love you unconditionally!

Day 21: The Mama’s Boy

Who would have thought that we are already at Day 21?

Day 21 – The person or persons that do not read my blog but I wish he/she/they would is…

I know a lot of people who doesn’t read my blog. Aside from I really don’t promote it; I really don’t go around telling every people I know that I have a blog. Yeah, you can see it on my twitter account, but only few people know that I tweet and most people that I follow of follow me have a blog as well.

I love anonymity, but to answer the question, I think my mom.

Since I never really spent my adult life in our home, I guess my mom will understand what I have become since I left home when I was 19. She will have an idea of the things that I am into and the thoughts that are running thru my mind. If my mom will know that I blog, she will love me more, because she will find out that though I have a life of my own now, I was able to keep the lessons that she taught me since I was a kid. She will still know that I become a good son.

And yes, I am a Mama’s boy.

Day 20: The Survival Guide

Day 20 — I’m half naked, cold, tired, hungry, hurt, wet and just washed up on a deserted island. The first things I need to do to survive is…

I know I am lucky if I will still be able to reach land. Haha. Add not knowing how to swim to the list of things that I am not capable of.

If you will ask me the very first thing I will do once I am lying naked on the sand, all I can think of is pray. I will be thankful for the gift of life and being able to still breath though cold, hungry , tired, hurt and wet. Pray to give thanks that I am okay, and then pray again to ask for help.

God moves in mysterious ways. He will never give you something you can’t handle.

Day 19: The Long Hair

Day 19 — The film that best describes how my day-to-day life feels is…

 

This is a hard one. Aside from I really don’t have a lot of movies to choose from, I don’t know any movies that may be as weird as me. I wish I can answer the Hunger Games, but it will not makes sense. :D

So I will just settle for Tangled! Hahaha!

I know that the movie is too gay but there will always be something about Rapunzel that fascinates me. The idea of doing everything to pursue a dream will always touch something in me. I can so relate! Haha. Who doesn’t have a dream, right? Who will not do everything to achieve it? Even vicious people have one. :)

To better understand it, enjoy the video below!

Day 18: The Different Schools

Day 18 — I would agree or disagree that high school is/was the time of my life… Because

Disagree. Because I was a total loser in High School, I don’t have many friends and there were a lot of things going in my family which really gets me distracted. Though my school was a pretty good school, it cannot be classified as the best time in my life.

College was different, though. Aside from having good friends, I was able to find myself in college. It has been a great turning point because college made me realize who I am, what I want to do with my life and who I want to become. College helped me plan for my goals and established them.

College will be one of the best days.

Day 17: The Dreams

There are many mysteries in the universe. If there were one truth I could learn, it would be…

The Dreams… Pak! :)

Dreams – I want to learn about dreams.

There will always be something in dreaming that I always end up fascinated. The thought that the products of our subconscious mind can either help us get a good night sleep or kill us (hello, nightmares!) makes dreams really interesting.

Though I know that dream doesn’t really have an accurate interpretation. For sure, you are also like me who still wants to at least get an idea of what is really going on in your head. Dreams can get complicated and up to this point, it is still one of the universe’s greatest mysteries.

Day 16: The Dead

I’ve just been granted the power of resurrection but I can only use it to bring back one dead celebrity. I would bring back ________ because…

Anne Frank was the first person who entered my mind. I know it will be interesting to know her story in the attic coming straight from her. I want to hear her story. Also, I want to find out how she died, since up to this point it is still a mystery. But it will be a morbid thought, so Anne Frank was removed from the list.

Next, entered Michael Jackson for the sole reason that he makes great music and it will be cool if he could just stay. But since I will not understand how Michael speak, let’s just let him Rest in Peace. Probably, I will go with Whitney Houston because I miss her and her songs. Also if she will have another chance, maybe she can still correct the mistakes that she made in the past. But seeing how her voice change bothers me so let’s just leave her rest.

Then, I thought of J.P. Rizal because the patriotic side of me really idolizes him. But knowing how times have change, probably Pepe will be upset if he will find out how much his country change since the time he died for it.

So I will just settle for Cato of the Hunger Games, aside from he is hot, he is someone who will make Katniss’ life interesting. It will be cool to see if he will change if he ever live. Probably, He can be a better love interest for the book’s lead. Well, at least that is something that I look up to.

Day 15: The Time

Day 15 — Given the choice between infinite time or infinite money, I would choose…

It will be cool having infinite money, but money cannot buy every thing, so I will definitely go for infinite time. Time is precious and having infinite amount of it means more moments spent with the people you love, more experiences to share, and more lessons to learn. :)

15 more questions, haha!

Day 14: The Cut

Because my parents never found out, I remember getting away with __________ as a teenager…

If there is something good about a strong storm, a regular student will say that classes will be suspended. Who doesn’t love just staying at home, watching your favorite show on TV, or probably just sleep all day?

But my high school was different. Once classes get suspended, expect that they will schedule a Saturday class to cover the lost days. At first it was really nothing, but when we realized that we were going to school on six straight days, sometimes it was not fun. What was cool about Saturday classes though was you get to wear casual clothes in school. Yes, jeans and a regular shirt.

Every Saturday, since we are the only school who have classes. My classmates and I will sometimes meet at the place where the tricycles wait, in order to save fare. I arrived there and notice that I have three classmates still waiting for one person to join them on their tricycle ride. I then checked my watch, and notice that we still have ten minutes before we get late so I ask them what are they waiting for? But one classmate said that he doesn’t want to go to school, during that time, I feel the same way, and to my surprise, the other classmates were also having the same lazy feeling. Such coincidence, right?

I told them first to move to a different area where no one will see us. All of our hopes to pass this Saturday class will be jeopardized if someone will say that they saw us waiting at the tricycle area. Good thing, no one saw them.

Since it was still seven in the morning, we cannot go to the mall. Computer shops were still closed so playing Counter strike will not be an option, also, rentals were expensive those days. We were close to just giving up and go to school when one of my fellow cutting classmate said that there is no one in their house. His family went to the province and since he has class he stayed in Muntinlupa. His parents also left him the house key. Haha! The universe is really with us on our wicked plan. :D

So there, we went to his house, watched Cable TV all day, played UNO cards and chess, and gossiped about stuff in school and our classmates. We also planned our excuse the next day so that our teacher will not suspect that the four of us were together. I will say that I have to go to the province, someone will say that he has a family gathering that he has to attend to, another will say that he has Saturday church, and the last will be sick. A promise was also created that no one will even talk about the things that we did, and if someone get caught, he will not tell who was part of the plan.

Monday came and we found out that only 16 people went to class, haha. The previous Saturday class was an epic fail! But the people who went to school got an additional 20 point for the periodical exam.

My parents never found out this little dirty deed that I have made. :) And if something good turned out with the whole experience. Aside from learning how to play UNO, it will be new friends. Nothing beats having new friends.
Enjoy your Saturday!

Oh, This is my 200th post! :)

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Day 13: The Morning After

Day 13 — I once got so drunk and lost control and this is what I was told I did and have no reason to doubt it…

 

I really have no issues drinking. Alcohol has been so wonderful, and just trying to answer a question related to it really brings a lot of wonderful memories that involves me and a lot of people I know.

I have been a social drinker for as long as I remember. Yes, I drink but since I get drunk easily, I always try my best to be a responsible party goer. But, like life, I am not perfect. And every time the imperfect things happen, definitely it will always be something too embarrassing to write about. Haha!

According to my best friends, every time I get too much of alcohol, I am one of the two things. Either I will be the emo guy who will not talk for the rest of the night or I will be the noisy little bitch that they will not be able to control. Most of the time, I am the latter. Haha! Some people say that once I got drunk I speak a lot in the English language, including the slangs and the accent. They even mention that I will just keep on talking, continue listening and react to one’s comment inappropriately. I am crazy.

Ultimately, the most humiliating thing that can happen for someone who gets so wasted drinking is waking up the morning after on a different room, in a different bed, and then someone will just enter the room saying that “uy, gising ka na, tara, ready na ang coffee (hey, you’re awake, let’s go, coffee is ready).” The problem is, you don’t know him, you cannot even remember his name. Pak!

Drink responsibly everybody!

Day 12: The Song

Day 12 — My favorite song to dance and sing to when no one is looking...

When I choose a favorite song, I focus more on the lyrics rather than the melody. Being a big fan of literature, a song with a great lyric really makes me happy.

Songs by singer songwriters are my favorites. I am a big fan of Taylor Swift, Owl City, Jewel and Ogie Alcasid.

Dancing is not my thing, though. So you will never see me singing and dancing, whether you are looking or not. Haha!

Right now, my favorite song to dance and sing to is taken from Smash! I am a big fan of the show and when I first listen to it really makes me want to download it right away. The song has great lyrics, and Katharine McPhee really nailed it.

The title of the song is, “Never Give all the Heart.”

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What do you think?

 

Day 11: The Remedy

Day 11 — When I’ve had a really bad day the first thing (not person) I reach for is…

No need for elaboration. Definitely the first thing I will reach for is…

Nothing but Ice Cream! I know you understand.